Divorce
When you open your eyes, realizing the lifelong dream of marriage has dissolved, your life seems to be captivated in a motionless control. Everyone whirls about you going on with their desires and daily routines, noticing not the pain or agony you face.
Daily, you fight to rise to the sun shining down around you. Pain permeates from your chest, through your head, out your mind! Your heart aches with unrelenting heat and burning agony. No one can assist in the battle you face on this unraveled road. Where does God fit in this? Where is His joy when agony surrounds? Where is the peace He once showered on you when you were encased in the bubble of emptiness? Abusive marriages dissolved leave to an overwhelming realization that they were right, you can't make it without them! …or CAN you? Can life be made having God as your husband?
Life has an unrelenting power to jerk dreams to an absolute halt, destroying all evidence they even existed. The only remnants remotely remaining are loss, loneliness, guilt, pain and unending sorrow. Time reveals with alarming shock that the fragmented relationship does not necessarily make for a fairy book romance of 'til death do you part.
Time takes you through shelters of despairing challenges, torturous phases and consuming introspection. It also drags you through courtrooms filled with undaunting tasks and revealing conversation. It pulls you through desperate isolation into open separation in the workplace. Those around you notice an introverted shell moving about aimlessly.
Where is God? Where does He exist in this? Where is His voice?
He is there, covering you in the strength to open your eyes in the morning, to gasp in the morning air, to feel the pain of fairytales hopelessly broken and to sit up in bed, encouraging you to face a new day…
by christine
- Be joyul always; pray continuosly; give thanks in all circumstances for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
- 1 Thes. 5:16 NIV
Date this page was last edited: Tuesday, March 09, 1999
